15.10

yer,let my bio teacher saw i recored what that he teach ady..
so shame..
i think that the girl that she mention that same with me record in class is leng lui liwei gua..
1st time took star line by own..
luciky nvr take wrong lrt..>.<

2day went sg wang with jun yao..
because wanna buy a present for my friend...xp
let me wait for so long..xp..
actually i went there too early ady..
sei loh..he like knew too much of my secret ady..xp
this guy lah saw leng lui..
till rmb his own name..
we kept repeat walk the wrong way..wahahha
i til hv alot electric..
sot each other..quite pain...
he til engage me a drink..thx ah...
so shui..nvr bring umbrella..till rain tim..
everytime go there oso like that..
when want to back home..
so unluckily..when i had a nap,
a gang of police asked all passanger to come out from lrt..
walau so many ppl..
when can i back home??
i m so tired...
luckily hv lrt ady..but reached wangsa maju hv to come out again...==
i c..
hv a lrt spoil at wangsa station...>.<
haiz..
 * ytd v saw a cute baby in lrt...
kok yee was so happy when saw it..
but really nvr saw he laughing like that b4..
so pity lah him..coz long time nvr laugh like tat..xp
but im differ coz i m always happy..
next time try yo make him laugh again..
but the baby really cute..walked like dancing hip pop...xp

summary for 27.9 to 14.10

long time nvr come to write my blog..
2day made a summary for this period for time...wahhaa
27.9
v celebrate birthtday to guy eon n mok...
v brought a lot rose and balloon for them..
v till gave my teacher a susprise..went his house suddenly..
n gv him the present..
till rmb his shot face..wahahha..n oso his red nose...xp
then his father till teach us a lot thing bout benefit of eat vege..
that time i ate vege oso..
so sat bside him...he kept took food for me...so thx..xp

2.10
sing k and hang gai with my bian ji family..
that time i m sick loh...
sang with geli sound..yer..
i found a person that same with me which is giant..
coz v slept tgt in k room..wahahha

5.10
sakai lah me ..exam coming till go and play badminton with jun yao them..
1st time saw yu huey n huey min..xp
yu huey won me..
this prove that i have to practise harder for my badminton..>.<
i won 1 cup of ice teru from jun yao again..wahahhaha

6.10
when chem trial..my hand shaking wer..
so scary..
i cannot stop my hand...

8.10
xxt day..i wear beach clothes..
wahaha..is a fun day..
i m enjoyed myself..
n brought a lot of balloon for my dear baby er er..
i shake my butt in front of many ppl..
y ah??ppl shake in circle..i m front n bhind..so weird..>.<
1st time wear so less...teehee~
my bian nv till made t-shirt for me..so nice..

9.10
i wear the t shirt that my bian nvr gave me..xp
so sad...1st time i felt failure in my phy..
mayb spend too much time on bio and ignore my phy ady..
i wanna cry..
i gave up and leave the exam hall..
sorry mr ng...T^T

12.10
my muet speakin exam..
hon fong was not coming..
then i had a new group which form by hui shan n jack..
quite like this group..
then was our 1st time that bcome partner..
but i felt no worry and not scare as last time..
jack said saw me ot 35 marks...
i hope it is real...xp
the hv caryn bf brought his friends me to have lunch..
then v watch movie..
i watched with marcus...
v till played boling..
although just 43 marks..but 1st time played...
it was a good result for me..wahahhahaa
white snake made me cry...>.<

14.10
2day chemistry trial...walau...no time to do..
at last minute,my hand shake...
cannot finised it...>.<

18.9.11 i m so sorry..i m the worst sister in world...

at early morning 8 am,i sms manyi n qian liang to make sure they are wake up for tuition..
but tuition actually start at 10.40am..wahahaha..
coz friday is hari merdaka..
so tuition was cancelled..2day hv to replace it..
i n qian liang were late to class..
manyi blame ady..xp
i m so fresh in all classes..
but manyi,qian laing n ky all look tiring n sleepy..
wahahah
while i m waiting kok yee,sin hui,li wei n manyi to finsed tuition,
i done a set of past year objectif..
walau,i cannot answer most of the question coz nvr done revision..
but time is limited..
then choose to use dk leong technique..
do more past year..
but only get 17/50..stupid la me..haiz..
after reached lrt,my mum came to fetch me..
on the journey,my mum said this december have to make a party for my sister..
coz she has to go ns for 3 months..
mayb i m jealous..i felt angry..
y not ppl say celebrate birthday with me..
but jz for my sis..
somemore my sis till ngam me when i want to celebrate birthday party..
said ur result not good oso coz in my home,only get good resilt jz can open birthday party..
our law..
then i crazy and said unhappy with it..
i saw my sis tear came out..
same as me..i cannot stop to put junk food in my mouth to cover my sad...
i knew that i hurted her..
i m so stupid n useless sister..
jz small n meaningless reason oso want to hurt her...
 i m so over..haiz..
then i finised whole packet of twisty although i dun like to eat..
b4 that, i open to let her eat..
she sad till dun want to eat..sorry ve..
i nvr done a sis job well...
haiz...i should think b4 talk...and not so stingy anymore..
i sms her n said sorry although she jz in the kitchen and i m in study room..
mayb i m no good in communication..
always argue with them...haiz...
at night,v bbq again..all meat..
walau,fat ady lah..
it ll made my brain to work slow..hv to exercise more ady..>.<

17.9.11 held a mooncake festival in my house..xp

 

my teacher wife and their baby..so cute..xp

 

bbq under the rain..

 

took pic tgt...n my baby sis run in front of us when v count till 3 n want to take..she r so naughty..

 

parade...

in tuition.my bio teacher was made revision with us..
when he asked me,i just notice that i dun know a lot things..
i m so weak and depress..
and ososome of my good friends cannot come tonight..
i m so sad...haiz...
since ytd,v were busy to clean our house...
coz my house always full of tv,dust n rustbin..wahahahha
then v used two days to clean..
i am sweating..
n cut vege till my hand oso hv bubbles..(i make 2 hole to let the water come out,the holes same like bitten by snake...>.<)
i m so cha shui..
night ady..
sei loh..y raining..
it is a sad news again...
i m so happy that simone n janice were coming..xp
but sad that hui yee r failed to come coz she not have transport to back home..
i so sorry to them coz my mum laksa was failed this time...standard low ady..
my mum kept sigh for it..
although they are not care bout that..xp
the earlist birds that i brought them came my house from melanti lrt were so pity..
coz they hv to build on fire...wahahah..
v till play charcoal till face become black...xp..
there were so many ppl come..
my lovely  tuition teacher tan whole family came too..
his baby son really look like him..so cute..
n my jie mui whole family.yuen nee n yuen kee..but too busy then cannot serve them..sorry..
altough raining,till hv ppl play candle n bbq with holding umbrella..
there are my sister friends,manyi,janice,simone,guy eon.qian liang,mok,charmine,jia yu n....
qian liang r too kind lah...bbq for 1 hour..but not for own..
r for other ppl..u not hot meh?
i m so sorry to ethan..
coz made him unhappy..
i should advise him with so fierce..>.<
dun cry ah..hamster father...i knew u can pass through this trouble..
b4 that,i met a same condition oso..
i blieve u..
i m so bad..
since jun yao n ky so hardworking to help me build on fire..
then i took some food for them..
but i put a lot of wasabi quietly..wahahah
but so dissapointed coz ky not scare wasabi..==
and finised all of it...
luciky the rain were stop coz my classmate all look bored coz ntg to do..
charmanine want to back home ady..
at last they never back so early coz they can played lantern n hold it to parade...(thx for ling ling coz supply it)
they can complete their coming purpose ady..
my sis ah..put the chicken bone into my friend drink..pity jun yao..
choi ky.teach my sis to play saliva..
coz want to find the holder for them..i found a dry big tree brancher and make it in branch for them..
i m so nood..like tat oso injured..
luciky jz a small wound..
c them so enjoyed..i felt happy oso..
hope them rmb it 4ever..xp
my 2 " cute " friends ah..
ady 11pm till nvr tell me..bkful the lrt close..
u 2 hv to live in my house 1 night yah..
when fetch them to lrt...
my sis was following..
she r so funny..
at start,c them..she was so shame..
nw want to sit with them at behind..
n jump here n there..
pity jun yaon ky to catch her..wahahah..but so funny..
my sis said jun yao is jie jie...but she said the gor gor that she more liked is jun yao..
when they backed,my sis cry on whole journey for back home..
my gang except mok lah..
till bbq till 1am..
geng..
while wait them,i ady tk bath n clean somethings..
after they backed,hv clean all things coz my family all slept ady..xp
sei loh..ady 2am..hv tuition at 10 something...hope can wake up...

14.9.11 have lunch in paparich with leng luis...xp

at morning,
we got a free voucher for free drink in paparich from mr low..
coz last friday,we "cheated" by him and went to visit the new building in tarc..
after 30mins under hot sun,we were not allow to enter...>.<
so,i n many leng lui (caryn,charmine,simone and hui yee)went there to eat..xp
so fun n nice..
so sia shui,i ate bread till whole table..
teehee~
a happy lunch time...
at night,i went to chinise orchestra cpz hv er hu practise..
mayb next day is school holiday..
we all played till dun want to back..
er hu and study are same ..if u start to enjoy it..
really hard to stop it,same like drug..xp

2day hv something that made me surprise..
mr ng,our best phy teacher, mr ng ask me to call ethan..
coz he nvr come for classes..
then ethan said he day back home coz no mood to study..
i was afraid and asked he "u really want me to said like to mr. ng??"
he said jz say sorry to teacher that he no mood to study..
lol...teacher hv a afraid face..
he feels hurt??
ethan r so honest..>.<

13.9.11 paparich

every tues,we had the shortest study day..
but 2day have extra class...
after chem extra class..
is a happy time,we can enjoyed our class video at last..
all thing happen in this time that vwe tgt..
so pity lah..fishy,all her parts oso is cake..xp..
wahahahha..
lol...my nood face..>.<
my father ethan,so nice..
he prepared junk food..my favourite mummy...xp..yumyum..
after that,i 1st time went to paparich..
it only beside the citc..where the place that i always stayback to study..
so exicited..xp...
nasi lemak so nice..but i ate fried rice..wahahahha..
manyi food come the most late coz she nvr said thank you???
really??mean manner is so important..wahahaha...
a nice day with my gang...xp

10.9.11 celebrate moncake festival in chinese orchestra

so tiring..
after tuition..
i knew my mum is busy with jellymooncake..
so walked back house myself...
i m in bad mood..
since ytd,my dad called me when i m in school...
mayb he are right...but really have tuition..
my mum was busy with making n seling jellymooncake..
but i nvr help..
then i kept think bout that..
at start,2day till planing to go school study..
coz ytd ask my mum..
she said saturday wont busy..
then i walked till school door..i saw the door was opened..
but i turned back n went back home..
i felt myself r crazy..

so sad,when reached,my dad scold me n push me to help mum..
he did not that how i back..
only my mum asked whether i walk by myself..
luciky till hv 1 person in home that care bout me..
dad always said i nvr help..
but i got take care my little sis...haiz...

at night,i went to chinese orchestra with my sis although i already took a long holidays..
i m lucily that i m going there..
coz i relax at there n 4got all unhappy things..
they really my good friend from small...
v dancing and singing and jumping..
n learn bout " i hold ady"( a famous person)xp
i also took a lot of video..xp
happy time alwaz short..after that day,i will be long time that cannot meet them..
i really hate the said goodbye feeling..
it make me worry coz after stpm,cannot c my friend anymore..

3.9.11 1st time celebrate mooncake festival with xxt member..xp

this holiday..
i everyday sat in home to watch tv..
used a bit time to study..
most of the time used to play fb..
no way,i have to make my holiday more meaningful...
i kept thinking bout this when i doing math..seinz~
then i make a decision..
since 2day not have chinese orchestra..
then i plan to mooncake festival that held by xxt..
last time i went their chinese new year celebration..
it was my sweet memory..
then i sms my friend qian liang..
ask whether i can join it..
because i nvr regrister...
and suddenly want to go.
he ask me go there and said they nid help..
lol..i rust to there..
when i reached..
they finised all things and want to go out to have their lunch..==///
lol..i nvr follow coz i 4got that myself also not yet have lunch..
i went to find my cute xxt junior..
when i outside the door..
i keep thinking..
is it suitable for me to enter??
at last i enter it..
i took a lot their cute video and pic..
they busy to make video for xxt..
then i went ady..
lol..not place for me..coz i dun know other xxt commitee member..
then i sat alone to do math.
then so hot...
then kelvin them came,other oso back from mcd..
v played deng mi whole school tgt..
lol..at last only got 1 present..
v should copy more set coz i wan eat chocolate lah...>.<
at last,it lost ady..>.<
at start,i b committe member..
we help them to clean up and prepare..
but suddenly my cute junior su teng..
she dun want to join coz want to prepare for exam..
then i replace and bcome participant ady..>.<
1st game was made a paper plane..
wrote some point to describe to let other ppl find us..xp
then i wrote i m a group blood,Sagittarius(very sakai),wear spec,fat fat short short,wear black jean,white like some1 hv drug..xp
coz my single group alwaz call me as "xi du mei"...
pity lah the girl that cannot find me till nid to make announment..xp..
lol..2nd game is station game ..
1st hv to go in group by use the puzzle in our hand..
lol...in gruop ady..
we have to introduce own in group..
when my turn to say,it stop ady..
the game was started..
then whole group not ppl know my name..pity right??T^T
1st game was teka teka..
2nd station for m group was hold 1 hand to jump..
other is take water n pass it...
then find grass or ppl to take pic...lol...
last is use paper to break the tissue...i like this...
in the half way,
my chinese orchestra friend called me many time..
coz they meet some problem bout money..
but i cannot heard phone coz it not fair for my group member..
i asked them to dun call me anymore..
i talked with fierce..so sorry to them..
i done a same thing on my mum..
coz she called me..i also talked with her inpatient..
i till think that time only 6.15pm..
actually they wait from 6.45pm but nw ady 7.15pm...
sorry again...
then is eat time..
i haven have lunch sure i ate a lot loh..
after eat,v have parade..
it so pretty..
my junior so nice..change the best lantern for me..thx thx..gam dong..^^
v took a lot pic..
after this v hv present time..
omg,my group got 2nd place..
v all so surprise and cannot believe it..
haha..happy lah..but at last i 4got to take present oso..
coz i rust to take su teng deposit..>.<
is ok lah..let them got it..
after all,v have to clean up...
walao,so many food till not yet finised..
i want to eat pomelo..
choi qian liang pui his saliva on it..
i beat with used all my enery..
my pomelo..wuwuuww
at last,i till got ate a bit..teehee~ blek~
i till brought 1 box of fried chicken back..hahha..
all ppl back..but my mum till not yet come..
coz her hp not battery and nvr saw my msg..
all my member want go tbr yam cha..
all of them wait me..
i felt paiseh coz let them wait so long..but i really felt gan dong..
if i can drive,i sure ll do the same thing and went yam cha with them..
ur guys really sweet..love ur guys 4ever..
luckily hua yue friend 4gv..so happy and gan dong..nw i know a things..
i m the most luckily in this world becuase i have a lot of good friend...
hue yue,xxt,secondary school,my college friend and other..love ur guys 4ever..

book fair ....

same as yesterday...
woke up late n do nothing..
yer..y i become so lazy..all holiday fault..>.<
i slpt late n woke late...
woke up and c tv..
i dun wan to spoilt my holiday lah..>.<
till hv 30+ days ady trial..>.<
vivian ah vivian ah~
to make my holiday more useful..
then i went to book fair..
with my sweetheart n my family..
she are so cute..
she want to hug her when i stood on lrt..
that is impossible..
because my own also cannot stand with stable..
she was shout when c the scape at outside of the window of lrt..
so cute..<3
went there...
walau..so many ppl..
same like enter ant cave..
c from upstair..
i only can all head move here and there...xp
my dad hate to go the place that hv a lot ppl..
i m so worry..
reached book fair..
we walk to differ way..
har??older than 18,need rm2.5 for ticket..
luckily i short..
so not ppl know i m 19..xp..i m so bad..
after entered,
i busy to shopping for my stationery for stpm exam...
waw..some thing really cheap loh..
1 pen rm 1 leh..
some ppl kept at there..
make me totally not chance to enter..
somemore hit me..lol...==
when paid,i same like an aunty...
i told my sis..
i old ady so hv this type habit..
when i saw then pen that wrote rm 5 per 2 packs..
when paid is rm7..
i asked my sis asked them to check again..( aunty style - rm1 also cannot give them cheat)
lol..i see..member only 2 packs rm5..but they nvr mention clearly at the price book..
this is only the price there show..
or really i c wrong??
sorry ve,i made u fish ady..xp
there we wnt to book part..
i busy with love story..
until took a book n sat down to read..
coz too long nvr fall in love??xp wahaha
then time to back home..so tiring..
on the way to back to lrt..
i pass through the garden that i hv a great memory..
i slept at there before..xp..
haha..all is past..i wont sad..
but i rmb it 4ever as my sweet memory..
i need oxygen..
there too many ppl ady..
but compare with pc fair..i prefer book fair ..
this is my 1st time went to bookfair..quite nice..

when i back,i just know my sweetheart cry since went back from book fair..(my dad mum n sweetheart back 1st)..xp

28.8.11 a tiring day but fun..xp

lol...shit..
nearly cannot woke today..
go play badminton..
although ytd 2am just slp...so tiring..xp
play 1 hour..
i hv to rust to gv my friend yee lim mooncake..xp
because she want to back hometown already..
then rust to tuition..
sorry teacher..
mayb too tired..
i slept whole class..
somemore in front of him...>.<
after finised tuition..
i enter popular to c the highline pen price..
when go in,ntg happen..
my mind keep thinking..
the door will ring when i go out mah.how ah??
lol..it really happen..
the guard..check my beg..included my pad...fish lah..
all ppl look at me...somemore they are traveler...my image..>.<
then i feel curious..
everytime i going but this wont happen..
then i think that mayb is pendrive..
lol..really is it..lucily there nvr sell pendrive..
then i told my friend that help me to buy..
i send msg to caryn..
she like ntg n just hahahaha..
yii~friend nearly send to police station..
she till so happy??
then i just know she oso kena before that when put the pendrive in her beg and enter popular..
luciky..i m safe..xp
then,went lrt station...walau..so many ppl waiting there..
i m so luciky becuase i have touch and go..
and a guy ask me how to go bukit bintang..
ask me??
i so blur oh..
then i said change lrt in majlis jamek..
hope it is correct..xp..blek..
sometime i think..my face got so kind??y many ppl like to ask me the road..
i always cannot answer them..>.<
lol...lrt door broken..
then touch n go cannot function..
lol..what day is it??
night hv a dinner to celebrate ytd performance is success..
lol...so less ppl come but we order too much,ate till want to vomit..
in all pic, i look so fat..>.<
v played a lot sakai joke,game,take a lot of pic...xp
till 11.40pm...i just back after my mum called me n  scold me..xp
when i want to back,lol..
traffic jam again..coz pasar malam of malay ppl..
really beh tahan them..
mayb i kena sue lah..
but i really want to say..
they really unfair..just gv malay pass through..
n ask me line up from bhind..
what the "do~"
my house in front me..
u want to line up from bhind??
i really want came out from car n walk back..
just my teacher stop me and ask" this is malaysis"
v r not choice..
heng！！
not chinese also no hv today malaysia...
discrimination lah them...
they affect our house area..full of noise,traffic jam n rustbin...really hate them so much much...
after we go,car accident happen..
see!how they take care the road..
at least mk me feel btr..
i really is a pervert n crazy person..>..<

27.8.11 our performance

whole night,insomnia..
i cannot slept well because worry that forgot bring anything..
after reached chinese orchestra..
i was late..
near all people reached already..
i started to b panic..
prepared all treasurer thing..>.<
some accident was happened..
the donation bottle broken...
reached..there was too early..
after set up..i felt so sleepy..
i fell slp ady..>.<
then we hv rehearsal..
after that we i have a short break..
i so tension because i nvr do well in that rehearsal..
after hv lunch..
i ran up to tian hou gong and mk pray..
i wish this performance can held by smooth..
and ask for stpm..
god ask me to study more hardworking...
trial mayb not that good..>.<
and ask me dun think too much if nvr do any wrong(friendship)..
2nd rehearsal and check sound ..
2day i only join 1 song..so sad right...
because my heng dai all too geng ady..
so i not have that chance..>.<
when they made rehearsal..
my heng dai jia xiang play with me..
keep make some funny emotion..xp.
such as silent sing..shouting for other heng dai soong qi and our teacher bing tai..
but our teacher really play well..he played gao hu so sexy loh..(i mean the music)
and our other teacher wei siong gv boom..
when all ppl closed eyes..
he is the 1 open eye with big..
actually when he play er hu..his eye oso open with big..
his laughing sound oso very funny..
conclusion he is a funny ppl..while they were busying for set up,
i fell slp again..
bad la wen hao..he said c from beside..i m a leng lui..
when i m turn back is sha po..>.< n mk him afraid..
make up was a big truoble for me..
i dun know hw to make up..
but not ppl believe me..>..<
then hv to " mafan" yan fang jie again...xp
after all done..
i hv to take care counter..
shit,really a big trouble for me..
there were some helper from other school..
i dun know how to handle them because i dun know there..
and the condition so messy..
a lot of thing that i dun know..
i not have vip list...
i really wanna die..
lucikly i found other to help me..
7.30pm already..
opp~ hv traveler come to enter also..>.<
he talk with me..
but my english so weak..xp
that time there full of ppl..
suddenly gv 3 or 4 ppl take turn to scold me...
because they waiting for too long..>.<
not choice...the time that v wrote is 7.30 pm...haiz..
n there were a crazy ppl want to enter...
teacher sing well...
luciky i play okok in that performance..xp
everything is going with smooth but i felt so tired..someore track in traffic jam for 30mins..
back home fell slp without remove make up..>.<
but i enjoy whole day..xp

3 surprise..xp

i busy planing with my friend's birthday..
till study mood hv a bit effect..
i felt sorry to any of classmate that i nvr prepare surprise for them..
because i really hard to remember birthday..xp
include my family birthday..
i also cannot remember..xp
myself not choice..
because it already chop on my ic..xp
my mum till said i busying with friend's birthday..
will they celebrate with me??
lol..i ans bk..
is it important??
just a last year,,
i hope all of my friends hv memorable days in this skul.

and i m enjoying to gv them weird surprise..xp

1st surprise,v brought a cake to chemisry lab...
lol...it count quite success..
but hv ant on it..
y so fast??
luckily my friends till can accept and ate it..xp
but v clean the ant away already..xp

2nd,v prepare two boxes...
1st is real present..xp
but the second wan are cricket..
who will know it..except organisize..xp
i m 1 of the organisaze..
 i recorded her response when she saw a cricket n shout..xp
they said im pervert..yer~
hehe..v r success..
but v sure gv her the real present..
bear??it also surprise for me..because i also dun know..
a cool girl tk a bear..
quite credit..
somemore it not cover..xp
but i sure that she dun know that 3rd surprise is waiting for her..
at start,i till think that mk this suprise in school..
but it not really fun if like that..

whole math tuition class,i cannot concentrate..
because too excited to waiting for third surprise..
i prepare at outside with some friends..
other try to delay her time in tuition class..
y so slow geh..
is the time..
"pop,happy birthday!!"..she shouting again..so funny...
all of other students look at her..xp
she gonna killed me...
so unluckily..
our camera man accident press stop..
n nvr record down...>.<

anyway hope she like this surprise...xp

a bad dream again..

before badminton competiton...
i got insomnia..
because hv a bad dream plus tension..
but now already finised the competiton..
i till dream about same kind of dream...
ytd i dream my friend angry me...

now i dream about my friend come my house..
he used pc..
my relative chat with him..
i talk with him..
he just ignored me..
when i write something for him..
he suddenly stood up and ripped the paper..
then he go away..
i cannot find he anymore..
hope it wont come true..
if everyday,i will dream this kind of dream..
i sure that i will insomnia everyday..
because i really hate the feeling that lost friend...>.<

a day that full of tear and sweat...

so tension..
2day is the badminton competition..
this was my first join sport competition except of run..>.<
lol...y so bad luck?
the competition was come near n near..
but i have diarrhea for whole day till nothing in my stomach to diarrhea anymore...>.<
stomach damn pain...
Is it cause by i just tension??
my shoulder oso pain..


then i start to let my brain be blank..
and tell myself..
i will win..
i will win...
try to blieve myself..


competition was bring forward..
because the male double competiton is finised early than what we expect..xp
my partner was tension..
same as me..
but i let myself cool down..
v are so luckily and won..,
i m not happy because of i won them..
i happy is at last..
i have some improvement...
i prove to my friend that look down me before..actually only 1of them look down me..
at last..i can get my friend smash ball..
that is most happy thing..(hope she wont saw it..)
i really unbelieveble...mayb i m really luciky...

i should thanks god too..
if v play with another 2 groups..i sure that v hv -ve percent to win...>.<
when v smash our friends..really scare them angry..>.<

the 2nd round..that is my partner closer friend group...
when competition going,her leg cramp...
my partner worry till wannna cry..
i m so bad..
because i hv a bad ideal in my mind..
i have tell myself..that is a chance to win..
anyway mayb my partner too worry n i worry her..
then we are underperform...
haiz..y so greedy..
can get 2nd ady out of expect..
mayb wanna try to play with other school...
lol..i fely myself bad..
n walk out n try to cool down myself...
i bang the wall til my hand red..
but after this....i....i...till cry ady..
when i saw my partner...
sia shui again..
this was my third time try in school..
i feel myself so bad..
i felt i lost my friend in this competition..
because i think too much and felt my friend dun want to talk and heed me...
and felt myself so bad coz alwaz think of win ..
and cannot help when some1 injured n till hv bad idea..
i felt myself so selfish...
my mum said me can control my hot temper with well..
if angry,oso wont more than 1 day..
but y i cannot control my tear well..>.<
aiyoyo...sorry to my partner that need to hug me to console me...
but that time i was so smelly..
and made a lot friend worry..>.<


my teacher said i can play better than b4..
i hope it is real and i can keep it n b better..
my mum said me sot sot geh...
where got ppl think so much in competition..
when competition,should try our best but not think friend 1st..
because that is competition..
then mean i should to do like that next time??
in conclusion,this was my new and good experience..


and 1 more funny thing is my mum give me house key to open car door..>.<
zaodao...
yoh,2day ah really dun know good luck or bad..
what that i want to buy..
gv other ppl buy ady..
i should book it earlist..
next time must b clever a bit lah..vivian...>.<

badminton competition..

although all ppl said me will lose in it..
but i tell myself...
mayb..no..should say i will try it if it have 0.00000000000000000000000001 %..
because i m liau vivian..
i will believe myself..
as what that i tell myself,
nothing is impossible..

nowaday i enjoy back my study..
after get some friends' support..
thank you..love u all so much..xp
gambateh..
i will create a miracle..
prove to all ppl that look down..
and thx u all so much...

is it my fault??

in this year,i really feel that friendship is weak..
last year,one gang of friends..
v play,v laugh,v joke together but now..
haiz..
since when??
y everything was changed?
mayb really is my fault..
because i don't like to talk when i m bad mood..
mayb u all talk with me..
i will less answer..
all because of stress..
i become hot temple..
i not really not want 2 talk with u all..
now i trying all the way to make you talk back with me..
but it till fail...
u choose to ignore and chat with other girl..
i knew..
sha more cute,she more pretty..
then not more friend ady?
i knew i m not a good friend..
last time i leave one of you because all of myself..
do u all know that i regret but i not choose..
do you know??
in my whole life,
most scary thing is lost any friends..
i really will sad n cry sometime..
when my friend dun wan to talk with me..
but i cannot force you to talk with me too...

a new experience

in the early morning,
i woke up to prepare for going a survey..
after played badminton for few minutes..
i started my way..

lol..in my mind,everything is easy..
when i went a strong station that i think can go bandaraya in titiwangsa time..
i just know i m wrong..
it will a big challege to me..
i m big girl but i super less go a place that i dun know myself..
i never check well before i go there..
luckily the right station is near..
lol..i really noob..
my friend same train with me..
i also dun know..
met my friend n start to find the place..
lol
1 more friend till not yet come..
we asking all ppl to find the place..
they gv us a wrong way..
in the finding process,i till nid 2 bend back to find my friend..1st time i can find back the road that only walked once..hohoh..happy...
hot n tired,sweating n my leg got bubbles..pain lah..
after 1 hours,v just know it just near sogo..
v walked a big round loh...
should i say thx or angry the ppl that show road for us??
but not their fault too..
coz included taxi also dun know where is it..
all my fault..
coz i should gv my friend the address last night..sorry..
make trouble for u all..
reached there at last..
till nid to wait..
sei loh..
my friend have to rust for tuition..
sorry ah..make u 1st time skip the tuition...>.<
at there,he was reading a book..
he dun want let me c the title..
after try few ways,i got the book ady..
i m shot when c the title..coz i know the reason that he reading the book..
coz the girl that she like..
like to c it...
hahaha..till this kind level..\
i m surprise coz i m not sad and unhappy..but till hv a bit uncomfortable...
i sucess ady..at last,i put down him..
can fully treat him as a friend which x same with last time..
the survey quite ok...
before the survey,a guy's mom realli oh..
sia shui..i know she just want to protect her child..
coz her son failed to get the quartified to join the survey..
she was scolding and say ady wait for long time..
and say his son dun know malay..lol
coz of rm40..aiyah...
luckily my mum is not this kind of ppl...19 years old ady..
til want mum do this..
i accidently pour the water when doing the survey..sorry...haha
after done it, i n my friend go sogo..
she was hungry n she treat me ice cream..
yum yum..my flavour...
then she let me c back our last year video..
last time a gang of friends..
how happy are us..
but now all is different..
this make me realise..
friendship can be hydrogen bond or vdw bond..
some friendship can be 4ever and strong..some will destroy in short time.
haiz..that y jz appecriate that what v hv nw..
i also try before..and prove it..
lost 2 friends in 2 weeks holidays..haiz.luckily nw v friend back as last time ady..
but 1 of them become not topic with anymore..

my friend really funny and dangerous..
coz she c the opposite of the car come and want to pass the road..lol...
car came from right,she go and make sure not car come from left...xp
she till said not money n food..
i sure wont go out at sunday..really meh??
mayb the reason is i m poor..hohohoh
anyway,2day is a nice day again...
thx for all ppl that mk me cheer 2day..teehee~

stress

in this 19 years,
first time n this was the most stress that i got before..
Until spm time,i till enjoyed myself..
and always relax when study and exam...
stpm is totally different..
i til greedy and took 5 subjects..
someore i have chinese orchestra and guitar,and tuition and xxt...
they said i find trouble for myself..
sometime i kept thinking..
mayb they are right..
when they discuss about that..
really really..
i want to cry that time...

when training in chinese orchestra,
to prepare for performance..
my partner n brother all have big improvement..
they can play better than me...
when i play wrong,
they look at me..
i really felt tension..
add on the stpm stress..
i cannot go in the music...
music should not let me stress..
then i try to relax myself..
i can play better...

i told myself again..
"u r vivian,nothing is impossible for you..how stress ,i sure that u can handle too,believe yourself...everything will be ok..gambateh vivian.."\
enjoying the process can make us get a better result and wont regret although u cannot reach the success..
that what i learn..xp
please remind me when u look me stress..xp

stpm

stpm was nearer n nearer..
i really worry bout my muet exam and trial..
exam was coming but i felt like myself prepare nothing..
i alwaz remind myself that i took 5 subjects..
should study hard than others..
but i alwaz study then forgot all the thing and need to study again..
it took my a lot of time...
mayb i till cannot found any suitable study method for myself...
nw my 2 friends that took 5 subjects same as me..
they look nothing..
mayb they already prepared fully for stpm...
haiz..scare was occuping my heart n my brain..
and made me feel tension n more tension..
stress n more stress..
more important problem is my concentration reduced..
i always tired easily and fell slept in class...
i try to prevent..
however,no matter what method that i used..
this condition till cannot improve...
i till ask my friend..
is it i want 2 die ady..lol...
really hope can get a good result n enter local u...
"vivian,gambateh..."

genting trip

saturday nitez was so late went to the bed...2am..
early morning my sis ady woke me up but i til slp bk..
morning,realli hard 2 drive coz there was 2 cloudy..
reached there,my da jiu expense us oldtown...
omg,i ate 6 pieces for breads...>.<

there v start 2 playing...brought baby went in n play..xp
she so brave coz she play ghost house,small space shoot...
after a while,v brought her 2 mum..she was crying...
soli ah,coz v want play 2..

jz like normal play water the sungei rejang...
i m the most wet..til other ppl cum n touch my  hair...>.<
when playing this game,a india guy was talking with me..then jz say hi 2 him..lol

after playing v ate mcd,waw..mcd in genting realli expensive but taste was same lah...
my cousin paid it..coz my uncle gv him ask he buy lunch for us...>.<
alwaz used their money...then tat nitez c bought1 packet  rm10 junk food expense bk them...
although my uncle gv kakak money for our dinner as well...
fat loh..ate so much fatty food per day....in huge no. 2...coz i ate 2 packet of fun fied n 1 set of mc chicken..>.<

after ate,there was raining...
then v brought baby played indoor game...
i wasted rm5 n jz got a eraser..
there was sum crazy ppl..they got a high marks in game n got a lot ticket 2 change a present......
omg...1 of them super crazy got more 10000 tickets in 10 mins...n only use rm 10..i used rm15 jz got 20 tickets....T^T

after it,v bk hotel...
angry my mum coz put my bag in car..
the car park was so far..only me dun have clothes 2 tk bath..felt sickness..
then i merajuk n dun went down play anymore n slept...
my cousin woke me up from calling from other room...say i steal money..lol...

x choice,followed them n went 2 play again..
v played the space shut...
lol...when waiting,a malay guy scold my sis coz climbing the iron..coz they want faster..n oh his friend eldest then us but oso climb ah..
i knew there was my sis fault but til 'beh song'...
then himself smoking..
here was labelling dun smoking...
there was the chance..i said bk him with fierce..
"soli,here canx smoking!!"
he said sorry n went side..haha..x b suprised coz i m prefect so tis was normal thing that i alwaz done..xp
jz hope he wont cum disturb us..
when on the space shut,i nearly cry although i not 1st time played it..
but this time it nvr stop ady down suddenly..my cousin til playing,,he said he only my hand muscle all cum out ady..>.<



my parent was having buffet..btw waiting them v played the "peng peng che"..
n enjoyed 4d movie..in that movie i m a thief..xp with my 2 partner..
my partner were very active n can fight but i m noob loh..
it really fun coz v steal a magic diamond..the diamond woke a patung n let it move...
n the pantung mk other pantung moves 2..v r fighting n running...when the crabs bite us..
the chair was move n blow..i took up my leg coz afraid n felt like crab biting me..xp realli fun n cool..
at last v catched by police but v happy coz nvr kill by the pantung..xp
when v reached home,there was ady 10.30pm..fast fast took bath...it was a happy n tiring day...

yer~

2day,i went school with bringing worry feeling..
coz i m worry that what comment tat my friends ll gv on my new hairstyle..
some of my girl classmate was said i look like a japanese doll with the new hair cut..
some say my face so round..
some say i look like mashimaro..yer...mashimaro is cute but if human look like tat..
is not cute at all...>.<
til got friend say i 4got tk off helmet when cut hair...
or coconut...>.<
mayb i nid 2 gv bk long front hair ady...

i n ah mok so bad..
v killed z centipede...'o ni tou fo'..
v r not choice..
v nid killed it,so that it not have chance 2 hurt others...

lol..nearly kill by man yi..
coz v was playing..
then she push me down...
but oh i canx tk breathe..
i was trying 2 cum up..
but she til think i m happy n playing with her..
then til kept push n dun wan 2 let me up..
oomg...thx god.luckily.i m til alive..
wahaha..2day i saw guy eon blur face..
it really funny..wahahha..i kept laughing for 10mins,,,
ah mok was so brave..
i jz joke n say he x brave slap me..
suddenly " pai" a sound..he realli slap me..
but i try 2 slap bk he but failed..then slap me 3 more...heng heng..wahaha
but this jz playing..xp
 coz last time when v play..i slapped him 2..blek.

2day i gap leng lui hui yee til step on a girl foot...soli ah..
but v 2 near..
nearly kiss her...lucky jz kiss her hair...>.<

n i realli dun understand bout my friend,qian liang..
mayb is my fault..
since tat day i n ky n him in popular happened ady..
he was changed..
easy angry..
just joking..he oso angry..coz he is bai tang zuo??
yi! suddenly discover that all my girl best friends was cum from bai yang zuo..xp

new hair style...

went 2 cut my hair after school..
there are a lot ppl..
the hairstyle that i wan was too busy..
then other barber help me 2 cut..
after cut..it look nice but was same hair style with last time...
then i accept the challege n cut my front hair.
he say i should not so easy accept what that other ppl say..
should gv more comment on it..but i m the kind ppl tat blur oh..
sum of my friends say pretty..
but i felt that it look like aunty after wear spec..n my family was laughing me..
is ok lah..jz accept..
jz new style..although it realli look funny..xp
what response that my friend ll gv after saw it..wahahha

2day also hv fun wit mok,jia yu,ethan n charmine..
v went 2 a shop play a game called hunter n shadow...
v played 3 times..but everytime i got vimpire..
i sure ll win..xp
mayb i look like vimpire gua..wahahha
ah mok say me act blur then ll win oh...
then he oso act blur n win pula..sweat...==

2day train speaking with hui yee,caryn n chui ying..
so tension..
in discussion,i talked with pasar lauguege..haiz..T^T
nid 2 train hard..
if not,the chance 2 get band 4 ll far from me...
n they can gv a lot information..
i think tat i nid 2 start 1 read more newspaper ady..so that can talk more in discussin..xp

1st day of school after a long holidays...

1st day of school after a long holidays..
i really miss my school life and my friends so much..
i m so happy when i bk school..
i enjoyed all my class with full of attenttion...
but 2day i dun know the class was changed n blur when saw new faces sat in my class..
i was tension..luckily i meet some1 tat same class with me n some1 tat treat me good sms n inform me..xp

2day,the muet exam was come out..
i til plan 2 check it after chem exam..so that it wont affected my exam mood..
at last,i til send it..
lol...is band 3..it was under my expected..
i til think tat i ll got band 2...xp
coz fell slp in muet reading exam,..xp
tat y i jz get half of it..
haiz..wat can i do??
hw 2 stop me 2 fall slp when reading..
>.<

2day most happy was can talk with a leng lui...
coz v long time x chat ady..xp
n i told her my secret..xp
cham..let her know how naughty i am ady...
hope wont detroy my image in her heart lah..xp
heard her advice..i should start 2 search a guy tat shi zi zuo tat surround me..wahaha

my sis so nice..she cooked 'dao po" n let me ate ..xp
my mum said me so big girl..ady 18 lah..
i til dun know hw 2 cook....xp
i plan 2 learn it after stpm..(i said same thing 2 years ago,after spm)
hehehhee
depend on conditon..
wait til 1day..which guy can mk me learn 2 cook for him...hhoohoho

luckily the chem exam was easier than wat tat i expected..thx mr dg...

canx wait for 2nd day...plan 2 cut my hair tml...xp

i love hua yue so much...

ytd v have performance at 1u..
this time performane was fun...
i n guo xiong rush from tuition..
when v want reach taman melanti..
v call guo rong but he not accept call...
really mk me scare that x ppl fetch us go...
lucky edward cum n fetch us...xp

the bus was like sauna room...damn hot...>.<
the hotels was pretty..i dun wan make up..
then i try 2 escape by hiding..
but i think that i m senior..
i m an example..
so tk decision n mk up...
so thick..
who ask my face 2 mz pimpers..
after sweat,my make up was melt,mk me look like a ghost...yer~
when performance,suddenly edmond nvr repeat...
luckily other til til alert n can follow..
if no,i dun know what ll happen after tis...xp
but in my opinion,v til do btr in this performance...
so fish..i fell twice in tat day..
1st time went n "dok" guo ring..n wan run n pokai...
fishlah..hope my primary skul ck nvr saw it..>.<
when bk rite,nearly pokai again from bus..
my file was fell..my tuition paper was everywhere..
luckily they help me 2 pick up...
n soli 2 my heng dai jia xiang..
coz he wan saved my zhong hu when i pokai..
then he hit-and-pillar til hand ady ' heng qi"..
v took a lot pic 2...omg,i took a pic tat carry my junior n sum pic tat bully my teacher..hahaha
they ask me "r u a girl or boy??"
coz i realli sakai..my heng dai ah qi say i m the kind tat wan b boy but x success...
mayb he is ritez...
i think they r ritez..
i m the kind bian tai n 38 in hua yue but emo in home..xp
i realli realli love hua yue so mz...

a day again...

haiz,
although my friend say accept me bk as friend..
2day i saw he chat happily with his classmate..
i think he ady ok..
but when he talk wit me..
there was not more smile in his face...
all my fault...
but i blieve time can change it...hopefully..

2day is music day for me..nid 2 join guitar class n er hu class..
i like music so much..
when wan going those class,
i ll very happy...
especially my er hu class..
coz can meet all of my zhong hu heng dai...
they all can play zhong hu well...
i m the weakest btw 3 of us...
they r so playful..but i like tat them so mz...^^
they alwaz mk me happy n help me when i nid...xp
hv a nice day again...i sure it ll continue 4ever...
coz life is controlling by ourselves according 2 secret..xp

me..^^

❤ 射手座 ❤ this is me..^^


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　　那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。

　　她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。

　　因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.

　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。

　　在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。

　　她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

this was my 2nd time write my blog

mayb other ppl ll think i m crazy...
write a blog so happy?
i realli excited when can write it..
i m a person that weak in pc or internet staff..
last time i dun know how 2 c other ppl's blog oso..
all of my account such as fb.myspace,msn..
was settled n open by my friend or relative..
tis was my 1st time registar myself..
i felt successfull.xp
although i try twice,jz can open it n now til canx use its function fully..
sumore i stop 2 write my diari,
coz lazy 2 write n need a lot books..
nw i can record all my hapiness n sadness with only typing..^^

in this short 2 weeks holidays,
i was plan 2 spend for preparing exam,
but i was 2 busy..alwaz not in home,
however i realli enjoyed this buzy holidays..
many unhappy n happy happen in this short time,
i nearly lost 2 good friends..
lucky my friend accept bk me as friend...
i really scare n suffering when waiting his reply for my this question" r v til friend??"
a short ans" yes" realli mk me happy..
i sure our friendship was affected n there was a wall btw us..friendship wont close as last time..
i nvr put any hope that the wall ll gone..
most impostant v til r friend...
i realli learn a lot new things in this holidays..
think poperly b4 talk or take any decision..
not b greedy coz it ll mk us b cheated by ppl...
treasure all ur friend..
b alert all the time..
b cheerful n x easily  temper coz i start 2 hv bad temper when there r a lot stress cum from study's problem..
all ppl jz ll like a cheerful friend...
a bad temper jz ll mk other ppl annoying...
that was sum par tat i got in this holidays...^^

i m so sorry

i really dun know it will happen..
at start,i just wan 2 help.
but lasty i mk more problem...
mayb u hate me...
what can i do?
i realli dun know..
i nid 2 lost a good friend coz of my stupid??
or 2 honest?
or nvr think properly?
or i dun know hw 2 respect ppl??
haiz...