a day that full of tear and sweat...

so tension..
2day is the badminton competition..
this was my first join sport competition except of run..>.<
lol...y so bad luck?
the competition was come near n near..
but i have diarrhea for whole day till nothing in my stomach to diarrhea anymore...>.<
stomach damn pain...
Is it cause by i just tension??
my shoulder oso pain..


then i start to let my brain be blank..
and tell myself..
i will win..
i will win...
try to blieve myself..


competition was bring forward..
because the male double competiton is finised early than what we expect..xp
my partner was tension..
same as me..
but i let myself cool down..
v are so luckily and won..,
i m not happy because of i won them..
i happy is at last..
i have some improvement...
i prove to my friend that look down me before..actually only 1of them look down me..
at last..i can get my friend smash ball..
that is most happy thing..(hope she wont saw it..)
i really unbelieveble...mayb i m really luciky...

i should thanks god too..
if v play with another 2 groups..i sure that v hv -ve percent to win...>.<
when v smash our friends..really scare them angry..>.<

the 2nd round..that is my partner closer friend group...
when competition going,her leg cramp...
my partner worry till wannna cry..
i m so bad..
because i hv a bad ideal in my mind..
i have tell myself..that is a chance to win..
anyway mayb my partner too worry n i worry her..
then we are underperform...
haiz..y so greedy..
can get 2nd ady out of expect..
mayb wanna try to play with other school...
lol..i fely myself bad..
n walk out n try to cool down myself...
i bang the wall til my hand red..
but after this....i....i...till cry ady..
when i saw my partner...
sia shui again..
this was my third time try in school..
i feel myself so bad..
i felt i lost my friend in this competition..
because i think too much and felt my friend dun want to talk and heed me...
and felt myself so bad coz alwaz think of win ..
and cannot help when some1 injured n till hv bad idea..
i felt myself so selfish...
my mum said me can control my hot temper with well..
if angry,oso wont more than 1 day..
but y i cannot control my tear well..>.<
aiyoyo...sorry to my partner that need to hug me to console me...
but that time i was so smelly..
and made a lot friend worry..>.<


my teacher said i can play better than b4..
i hope it is real and i can keep it n b better..
my mum said me sot sot geh...
where got ppl think so much in competition..
when competition,should try our best but not think friend 1st..
because that is competition..
then mean i should to do like that next time??
in conclusion,this was my new and good experience..


and 1 more funny thing is my mum give me house key to open car door..>.<
zaodao...
yoh,2day ah really dun know good luck or bad..
what that i want to buy..
gv other ppl buy ady..
i should book it earlist..
next time must b clever a bit lah..vivian...>.<