stress

in this 19 years,
first time n this was the most stress that i got before..
Until spm time,i till enjoyed myself..
and always relax when study and exam...
stpm is totally different..
i til greedy and took 5 subjects..
someore i have chinese orchestra and guitar,and tuition and xxt...
they said i find trouble for myself..
sometime i kept thinking..
mayb they are right..
when they discuss about that..
really really..
i want to cry that time...

when training in chinese orchestra,
to prepare for performance..
my partner n brother all have big improvement..
they can play better than me...
when i play wrong,
they look at me..
i really felt tension..
add on the stpm stress..
i cannot go in the music...
music should not let me stress..
then i try to relax myself..
i can play better...

i told myself again..
"u r vivian,nothing is impossible for you..how stress ,i sure that u can handle too,believe yourself...everything will be ok..gambateh vivian.."\
enjoying the process can make us get a better result and wont regret although u cannot reach the success..
that what i learn..xp
please remind me when u look me stress..xp