is it my fault??

in this year,i really feel that friendship is weak..
last year,one gang of friends..
v play,v laugh,v joke together but now..
haiz..
since when??
y everything was changed?
mayb really is my fault..
because i don't like to talk when i m bad mood..
mayb u all talk with me..
i will less answer..
all because of stress..
i become hot temple..
i not really not want 2 talk with u all..
now i trying all the way to make you talk back with me..
but it till fail...
u choose to ignore and chat with other girl..
i knew..
sha more cute,she more pretty..
then not more friend ady?
i knew i m not a good friend..
last time i leave one of you because all of myself..
do u all know that i regret but i not choose..
do you know??
in my whole life,
most scary thing is lost any friends..
i really will sad n cry sometime..
when my friend dun wan to talk with me..
but i cannot force you to talk with me too...