a new experience

in the early morning,
i woke up to prepare for going a survey..
after played badminton for few minutes..
i started my way..

lol..in my mind,everything is easy..
when i went a strong station that i think can go bandaraya in titiwangsa time..
i just know i m wrong..
it will a big challege to me..
i m big girl but i super less go a place that i dun know myself..
i never check well before i go there..
luckily the right station is near..
lol..i really noob..
my friend same train with me..
i also dun know..
met my friend n start to find the place..
lol
1 more friend till not yet come..
we asking all ppl to find the place..
they gv us a wrong way..
in the finding process,i till nid 2 bend back to find my friend..1st time i can find back the road that only walked once..hohoh..happy...
hot n tired,sweating n my leg got bubbles..pain lah..
after 1 hours,v just know it just near sogo..
v walked a big round loh...
should i say thx or angry the ppl that show road for us??
but not their fault too..
coz included taxi also dun know where is it..
all my fault..
coz i should gv my friend the address last night..sorry..
make trouble for u all..
reached there at last..
till nid to wait..
sei loh..
my friend have to rust for tuition..
sorry ah..make u 1st time skip the tuition...>.<
at there,he was reading a book..
he dun want let me c the title..
after try few ways,i got the book ady..
i m shot when c the title..coz i know the reason that he reading the book..
coz the girl that she like..
like to c it...
hahaha..till this kind level..\
i m surprise coz i m not sad and unhappy..but till hv a bit uncomfortable...
i sucess ady..at last,i put down him..
can fully treat him as a friend which x same with last time..
the survey quite ok...
before the survey,a guy's mom realli oh..
sia shui..i know she just want to protect her child..
coz her son failed to get the quartified to join the survey..
she was scolding and say ady wait for long time..
and say his son dun know malay..lol
coz of rm40..aiyah...
luckily my mum is not this kind of ppl...19 years old ady..
til want mum do this..
i accidently pour the water when doing the survey..sorry...haha
after done it, i n my friend go sogo..
she was hungry n she treat me ice cream..
yum yum..my flavour...
then she let me c back our last year video..
last time a gang of friends..
how happy are us..
but now all is different..
this make me realise..
friendship can be hydrogen bond or vdw bond..
some friendship can be 4ever and strong..some will destroy in short time.
haiz..that y jz appecriate that what v hv nw..
i also try before..and prove it..
lost 2 friends in 2 weeks holidays..haiz.luckily nw v friend back as last time ady..
but 1 of them become not topic with anymore..

my friend really funny and dangerous..
coz she c the opposite of the car come and want to pass the road..lol...
car came from right,she go and make sure not car come from left...xp
she till said not money n food..
i sure wont go out at sunday..really meh??
mayb the reason is i m poor..hohohoh
anyway,2day is a nice day again...
thx for all ppl that mk me cheer 2day..teehee~

stress

in this 19 years,
first time n this was the most stress that i got before..
Until spm time,i till enjoyed myself..
and always relax when study and exam...
stpm is totally different..
i til greedy and took 5 subjects..
someore i have chinese orchestra and guitar,and tuition and xxt...
they said i find trouble for myself..
sometime i kept thinking..
mayb they are right..
when they discuss about that..
really really..
i want to cry that time...

when training in chinese orchestra,
to prepare for performance..
my partner n brother all have big improvement..
they can play better than me...
when i play wrong,
they look at me..
i really felt tension..
add on the stpm stress..
i cannot go in the music...
music should not let me stress..
then i try to relax myself..
i can play better...

i told myself again..
"u r vivian,nothing is impossible for you..how stress ,i sure that u can handle too,believe yourself...everything will be ok..gambateh vivian.."\
enjoying the process can make us get a better result and wont regret although u cannot reach the success..
that what i learn..xp
please remind me when u look me stress..xp

stpm

stpm was nearer n nearer..
i really worry bout my muet exam and trial..
exam was coming but i felt like myself prepare nothing..
i alwaz remind myself that i took 5 subjects..
should study hard than others..
but i alwaz study then forgot all the thing and need to study again..
it took my a lot of time...
mayb i till cannot found any suitable study method for myself...
nw my 2 friends that took 5 subjects same as me..
they look nothing..
mayb they already prepared fully for stpm...
haiz..scare was occuping my heart n my brain..
and made me feel tension n more tension..
stress n more stress..
more important problem is my concentration reduced..
i always tired easily and fell slept in class...
i try to prevent..
however,no matter what method that i used..
this condition till cannot improve...
i till ask my friend..
is it i want 2 die ady..lol...
really hope can get a good result n enter local u...
"vivian,gambateh..."