my mood...at the last day of 2013~ bad mood~

sometime i am emo person~
i felt i am useless but actually it is true...
i am the kind of person that easy to give up when meet some problem~
i felt to give up league membership...
i learn music for long time..
but i still play like' suck'... 
all is my own trouble..
i am lazy but wish to become professional..
lazy to sacrifice my time to practise ~
i still weaker than the new member...
haiz...
but what can do..
who ask me lazy...
give up ??? i think to do that many times..
but i cannot leave there..
because i like it life..
all members same like my family member..
but i stress if i still remain my lazy habit..
new year coming...
think positive..
change myself..
ppl can give up me..only myself cannot give up myself...cheer...
try to change myself...to be better ~
in study too.. i have same habit..always skip what that i no understand..
that my result always bad ..hehhehehe
vivian vivian vivian...
new year new vivian..
more target..
to become better vivian...
wish all my friends can do the same thing too...