郁可唯 Yisa Yu【暖心】Official Music Video

1st day of break up.

After one year, I opened it after super sad.
This our second time but also 1st time officially break up. After our happy and sweet memories for 447 days. I though it will be stable for this time but i am not.
For this time, mostly is my problem. I too scare to lost him so i tie him tight. I knew i should not do that. I trying to change but now he never even give me chance anymore.
Today, i cried many times.No matter how i beg him. he said we are impossible. It may normal and acceptable if told by other but it painful when told by him. All of our sweet memories keep playing in my mind. Now all change. Same place same times, i become alone.I wonder what u will feel? I cannot forgot the time to cook medicine, call me to take care my health and carry me to sleep. I though take care each other when couple is something that sweet. But now i only know that is heavy responsible for you. You felt tired and felt want to leave me.But i am no robot. How can i face the suddenly change from couple to be friend? do u know how same i am when u ignore me and talking phone with smiling face and pass by me. Heartbreak. I though i can do what u say be happy and be normal friend as you. Now i know that is not easy than what i expected.
You said i am not good in what. I do whatever to change for you but you told me that you dun want me to change. I just done what you hope to be.I rmb before we together i had said you do u mind my age. but now you told me i am old. Our love not even strong until can face the age difference problem.
Now,I act to be happy.I trying to make you no need worry about me.I choose to accept to break because you told me:if you love me, you should listen to me and give me the freedom and happy that i wanted. I choose to follow what you want. You said i will used to it after cried for few months but you did not know how many effort that i used to think for you.I know i am selfish because i felt why you can smile and play with others but not sad as me at all. But now i know what i want. i will wait one day you return.I will smile to you until the day i leave the world.Do you know every time you reject the care from me.I really super sad and heart break.Honestly, life really hard to expect. I really dun know when and where i will die. I know you will not read this because you hate to read long essay. Hope if one day i leave the world, you willing to finish and understand my feeling.will you?
gor gor? today i really happy that can cook with you and play with you in room.
Now, i know care should no use scold. Should talk when moody. Please dun say introduce guy to me and say when i couple will forgot the pain that you gave me. Really heart break. I am not a thing or robot or even toy. I am human.sorry i cannot control my tears. I will i will do what you hope and happy. maybe i not the right one for you. Or maybe when you read, i ady die? please rmb to don't the same thing to another girl that you love. I will sad when see you regret and emo.i love you. gor gor........but too bad you forgot you used to love me previously. Argue and some unhappy memory is normal but too bad both of us fail to pass it because you choose to give up. mun. i really sad and hurt. but i promise i will be better and get the chance to return back your hug.
well. i know i am crazy. i have chance to voice out my feeling because you dun like.U said you will hate me if i do that.i created a song in toilet to voice out my heartbreak feeling.
我不是你想象的坚强，
我强颜欢笑，
只为了实现你的梦想。。。
你要什么。
我都努力地给你，
可是你说，
你不想要我改变，
因为我已经不像我。